life is hard. I hurt. I am overcome with an overwhelming exhaustion again. I am not a good wife any more, was I ever? I wonder about my parenting abilities. I am tired.

I had a lovely weekend with my husband. The one my brother told me I am lucky to have since I am not that great of a woman, I am nice and all, but not attractive, “you know what I mean”.

I am working again, but it doesn’t count because it is only 8 hours a week. It should bring in about $600 a month, but it is only 8 hours a week so it doesn’t count much.

I am doing my best,,,that is all I can say. Doing my best to try to make my home homey, my yard soothing, my kids healthy, my husband happy, and work as much as I can. all I can…..

Holding on tight…

Busy weekend
Helped at the Roller Derby bout
Will begin training as a ref this week!
work is still draining me
My daughter went to her first prom, was sooooooo beautiful, and had her first romantic encounter ever!
(Yes she told us all about it!)
The same daughter is now my chauffer, as she has her drivers permit now. Once we get past the jitters, she is going to be quite good.
finished finals with A’s..
Started Radiography class, physics anyone?
Planted a low water succulent garden on the side of my house.

oh yeah..and.
Intervened when neighbor was verbally assaulting his pregnant girlfriend for over 10 minutes on the sidewalk in front of their house.
(just suggesting they take their business inside, the kids were freaking out and it was out of control)
He threatened to kick my a**, told me to mind my own business and stay the h*** away from him and his property.
Said my family was in trouble now, because he doesn’t take any s*** from anyone.
The entire time his girlfriend is crying behind him, mouthing “I’m sorry, I’m sorry” over and over again”
My brother came out to intervene and then it escalated.
I spent quite a few minutes between them, crying “it doesn’t have to be like this…” and stop,,,stop stop.
The neighbor is calling in the “Mongols”, the motorcycle gang he rides with, to show us who rules this neighborhood.

whatever…he is so full of bs that I can’t believe a single lie he weaves.

Freak.

But now I worry about my children, him yelling at them…they like him. He seems to be a bit of a super hero, lots of ink, piercings, high energy, built cardboard forts with my kids in the driveway when he got new appliances.

so strange, we have been so welcoming and hospitable to them. They have borrowed things, come by to chat, gone on bike ride tours of the neighborhood with us…he and I had been looking at his pack yard, finding the landscaping under the overgrowth, just a couple of hours ago before he threatened to kill me.

He drinks constantly, and is apparently a diabetic. I suspect he is partially insane with a dash of blood glucose level irregularities thrown in.

I won’t have it. I will do what it takes,,calling the cops, being a bitch, building a wall….whatever it takes to keep my children safe, to not feel like I have to lock the windows in the summer nights for fear of the neighbor.

My husbands bike was found somewhat damaged this morning, flat tire and a broken rim…it was in the shed, with the lawnmower the offered the use of to the neighbor.

I mowed his lawn last week, while they were gone for the day, just being neighborly.

Freaking Insane people…

Holding on tight…

Busy weekend
Helped at the Roller Derby bout
Will begin training as a ref this week!
work is still draining me
My daughter went to her first prom, was sooooooo beautiful, and had her first romantic encounter ever!
(Yes she told us all about it!)
The same daughter is now my chauffer, as she has her drivers permit now. Once we get past the jitters, she is going to be quite good.
finished finals with A’s..
Started Radiography class, physics anyone?
Planted a low water succulent garden on the side of my house.

oh yeah..and.
Intervened when neighbor was verbally assaulting his pregnant girlfriend for over 10 minutes on the sidewalk in front of their house.
(just suggesting they take their business inside, the kids were freaking out and it was out of control)
He threatened to kick my a**, told me to mind my own business and stay the h*** away from him and his property.
Said my family was in trouble now, because he doesn’t take any s*** from anyone.
The entire time his girlfriend is crying behind him, mouthing “I’m sorry, I’m sorry” over and over again”
My brother came out to intervene and then it escalated.
I spent quite a few minutes between them, crying “it doesn’t have to be like this…” and stop,,,stop stop.
The neighbor is calling in the “Mongols”, the motorcycle gang he rides with, to show us who rules this neighborhood.

whatever…he is so full of bs that I can’t believe a single lie he weaves.

Freak.

But now I worry about my children, him yelling at them…they like him. He seems to be a bit of a super hero, lots of ink, piercings, high energy, built cardboard forts with my kids in the driveway when he got new appliances.

so strange, we have been so welcoming and hospitable to them. They have borrowed things, come by to chat, gone on bike ride tours of the neighborhood with us…he and I had been looking at his pack yard, finding the landscaping under the overgrowth, just a couple of hours ago before he threatened to kill me.

He drinks constantly, and is apparently a diabetic. I suspect he is partially insane with a dash of blood glucose level irregularities thrown in.

I won’t have it. I will do what it takes,,calling the cops, being a bitch, building a wall….whatever it takes to keep my children safe, to not feel like I have to lock the windows in the summer nights for fear of the neighbor.

My husbands bike was found somewhat damaged this morning, flat tire and a broken rim…it was in the shed, with the lawnmower the offered the use of to the neighbor.

I mowed his lawn last week, while they were gone for the day, just being neighborly.

Freaking Insane people…